08.03.2010

Woke up bit early today around 6.50 am...

Thought of going for a smoke but changed my mind.. Took out all printouts of "The Hindu Archives" starting from oct 2009 to Feb 2010.. Still pending are the science section and the past 7 days of march.. This itself took almost the entire mornign.. Had lunch at home at 1.00 pm and watched quantum of solace in TV for sometime.. This guy daniel craig certainly lacks some air when compared the previous james bonds.. I remembered the girl who acted in "Vesper" in Casino Royale. (another film where i was still sitting after the credits roled out.. the movie ended in a abrupt way.) she was one hell of a girl..

Then went and met Mr. Raj around 2.30. I had promised him that i will have lunch with him. Went to a hotel and had a couple of naans and jeera rice with butter chicken masala and chicken kadai.. (what a long time since i had been to hotel to have food.. for the past three months, i have been having typical home food.. !!!)

Then gave the current affairs print out for spiral binding.. - collected it - spent Rs.35 and came home...

Met another useless fellow Mr. AM, who is a fat lousy ................and also a upsc aspirant. decided today that he is a time waster fit for nothing like me and should not have further contact with him......

Then went to ground with Mr. A . Had a couple of smokes and came back home... and writing this blog..

Another intresting thing, i did was to download the application for actuaries india website.. though i never had any interest for maths or for the matter any other subject, think i will pursue it further (if i dont get any job... come on, u cant sit simply doing nothing, though by itself , doing nothing is a great art). It seems to have a lot of growth potential where one could sit all day in front of a computer yelling at it show the results u want, ppl call this actuarial since there is no actual work involved and everything is based on your assumptions taken on some other planetory plane.. .. Think THIS WOULD SUIT ME..

Line for the day "...Who was the first to see a cow and wonder what will happen if I squeeze these dangly things and drink whatever comes out?"

07.03.2010

Successfully started at 7.50 from home to attend the SBI assoicate banks probationary officers exam.. The centre is crescent engg. college, the one place i really dont want to visit again..

Went for the exam.. didnt meet any of my old faculites... took the calculator watch with me knowing that it is not allowed and a fraud...but still who cares : even if i win in a rat race, i am still a rat.. but i want my cheese.....

The paper was sort of tough.. luck by chance, did well in reasoning and gk,.. Maths as usual was a nightmare to crack..but still managed to pull some 23 questions in it.. english was fine.. when i was writting the exam, suddenly the thought of doing a second MBA degree came to my mind.. should seriously give some thought about it..

After finishing exams, started at 1.40 from the place.. gave my bike engines some work.. long time since i have traveeled in 70-75 kmphs.. but still it was good after a very long time.. came home at 2.05 p.m..

Had lunch (rice and chicken) and slept nicely till 5.p.m.

Then woke up and went to ground with Mr. A. Had a couple of fags and brought a new kaini packet.. This is one habit seriously i want to end with this packet.. what use of education is to a person who does not use it.. knowing it is harmful for my body, how can i use it??? BUT still habits are habits.. .reminds me of a song" I AM BREAKING THE HABIT TONIGHT"

Came and chatted online for around 30 min under a psuedo name. It makes me think how easily ppl could talk to strangers about many useless stupid things yet live on without even knowing our neighbours name...

Was too tired and went to sleep without writing this blog.. i am writing this the next day eve...

06.03.2010

• Woke around 7.30 today..

i sometimes wonder how it is possible for a guy to sleep soundly wiht so much troubles.... and that too this *****onic offer is worrying me like anything..

{{though i am not seriously looking back to go this market where all gains over a period of time is THOUSAND GUYS SPITTING BEHIND YOUR BACK.. i have seen it in my previous assignment with a 6.5 billion conglomerate.. i think this is one bad attribute of sales guys.. over a period of time, they become victims to our own self deception and choose a easy path of swearing at things, (Our product is a fucked up product... how do u expect me to selll) or people (talk something about the boss: "TP" or the dealer "TP", not giving any payments).. thats the main reason why i dont like the industry.. the second reason being, you are going to be late to home. For any sales guy in the consumer durables industry, it takes easily before 8 p.m to start from office.....to which i dont want to become a victim again.}}

• Went to hotel sangeetha in bazulla road to buy idli, vadai and extra sambar..
• Finished off taking october events from the hindu archives. Am going to stop with this. think 6 months of paper is enough for current affairs.
• Then went to connemara library to cross check the events.. met mr. raj over there, a new found poor soul who is preparing for UPSC... had a puff and a coffee at his expense..
• Then came home for lunch: poondu kozhumbu and curd.. with chips.. saturday noons are getting monotous..
• Then slept soundly till 5 p.m
• Went to kapali temple in mylapore with my dad.. every time i go there, i can see the images of our ancestors who built the temple that time so that the present generation can come and see some beautiful girls... what futuristic thinking.. plan to do a topic about the temple some day when i find time..
• Then came back dropped my dad and went to somasundaram ground for a couple of fags...

Came home and writing this post....

From 1 to 5....

Ooops........It has been 2 months since i have blogged. Considering the fact that i am no blogger and hate technology like anything, still i feel i have lost almost a dear friend not sitting in front of the system...........

OK.. a recollection of what i did....

1. Nothing useful to humanity....

2. Went for a couple of interviews....... (Actually, the thought of going to work since closing down business is like to leave a fa** in a crowded bus listening to a walkman... 4 those who dont understand, try it... ). But however there are no logics or systems or processes in real life.....Survival is the necessity of the hour.. AFTER ALL MASLOW WAS RIGHT.........

3. Explored a couple of high funda job alternatives like doing an in depth analysis of becoming an IAS, googling out for MBA institutes that offer a decent pay package... etc.. (This is yet to be actually done.. but as we know, the brain first rationalizes and then decides...)....

The result: I have almost 2000 pages of print outs piled on my small desk of matters regarding about IAS. I am still waiting for the acknowledgment card from UPSC...

4. My leg pain has automatically cured off itself. In this moment, i thank the various mosquitoes from Africa, Arabia or any other planet which my doctor blamed for my pain in the knees......

5. None of my resolutions which i have taken for new year including writing a blog on a daily basis worked out and considering the fact that "LIFE IS WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE MAKING OTHER PLANS" its not a great thing to be thought of..

6. Have certainly got some more clarity about GOD and other spiritual terminologies used... I would certainly love to tell them, but there is still some more clarity which i would like to obtain... and it is really fun to see ppl seek answers for themselves....

7. And still sometimes I think about Mrs. I, who is now married for more than an year to someone whom she likes and settled in the land of US..

8. OK.. Apart from puppy emotions (read this term in a leading newspaper, did some workings on the new business plan.. but still there is some thing going wrong sometimes ......... IT NEEDS TO BE SORTED IMMEDIATELY)..........

9. I have atleast broke (is there a term broke in english???) the ice with Mr. S.....

And while writing this, I ...........

ok.. 9.00 pm.. time for dinner..............

9.27 p.m.. Had a chappatti for dinner along with 9 idlis and 3 vadais...... AM ON DIET...

and speaking of diet, for the past two days i have resumed my walking habit in the warmth and serene location of somasundaram ground ... actually it feels kind of good..

and while having dinner, i remembered some of the things i did in the time gap this post and the previous post...:

10. Spent hell of lot of time in somasundaram ground just having a couple of fags and watching small guys playing football.. and thnks to them, my interst in football has been aroused.. everytime i see the small puppy in my home, i feel like kicking it out to the street.....and shouting GOAL....

11. spent a lot of time reading thrash novels, .. in my view, anything which doesnt strike fire from the heart of a man is thrash... read almost 30000 pages in 2 weeks .. i stopped it when i started to see the characters come and speak to me about their inner feelings..

12. spent some time doing nothing.. NOTHING IN THE SENSE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING....

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